Baby Kevin visits the White House. (Kevin's Story, Part 11)

As we get closer to Kevin's arrival I am finding it hard to update the blog.  My mind is a constant swirl of emotions that I am finding difficult to put into words.  In just a little over two weeks time I will be going to the hospital for an induction.  By the time Easter gets here I will have met, held, and said my final goodbyes to my baby boy.  Throughout the day it will randomly hit me how close things are getting.  I'll feel a surge of excitement just like I have with all my other babies. Unfortunately that excitement is always followed by a sense of dread.  I know the time is coming whether I like it or not. There is absolutely nothing I can do to change that.  My mind knows all of this but my heart isn't ready.  I know it never will be.

Yesterday was one of those days that I just couldn't shake the funk I was in.  At around 10:45 I told Scott that we had to get out and do something.  I knew I needed to stay busy and not give into the negative feelings.  Our idea to go for a drive somehow snowballed into taking a 3 hour trip, one way, to go see the White House.  By 11:15 we had the kids all loaded into the car and were on our way.

I realized that the trip probably wasn't the brightest idea.   I know that between Kevin's issues and the extra amniotic fluid I could possibly go into labor at any time.  I also knew that this would probably be my one and only chance to go on a family trip with baby Kevin.   It may not be the trip I would have envisioned but it would be the only one we would get.

Thankfully the little ones did awesome and we had minimal complaining during the drive.  It turned out to be a pretty awesome day for all of us, even if I did have some moments I didn't feel like I could have walked another step!  I am grateful that Scott had the idea and even more grateful that we took the time to enjoy the little moments we have with baby Kevin.  If there is one thing I have learned through this process it's to enjoy the here and now.  You have to make every moment count.

Baby Kevin at the White House.  34 weeks.